September

I am putting this out into the Universe. I am telling this to God. I am announcing this:

I WILL GET PREGNANT IN SEPTEMBER.

God, Universe and all others: listen to me!!!!!!
I WILL GET PREGNANT IN SEPTEMBER.



And if not... I'll just go and steal a baby :)
Joking!!!

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I'm feeling beaten today. The Universe has beaten me. I surrender. The white flag is drawn. My gun is down. My hands are in the air. I have cried "Uncle!"

With all the good that has been happening in my life as of late... the ability to quit my old job, and this amazing, exciting and PERFECT new job has fallen into my lap, I thought "things are finally starting to look up for me!" I thought for a brief second how wonderful everything is working out, like it is "meant to be!" that all it's missing is a child and that with all of my stresses gone, that dream would happen. I started yoga, I am taking an all-natural spray to "relax" and not stress. I even began acupuncture!!! (I saw a Sex and the City episode where Charlotte - who is basically a character based entirely on me - got acupuncture to get pregnant and she did. Unfortunately, she miscarried not a few weeks later, but still. It worked.) I have been doing EVERYTHING I have not tried in the past year and a half.

Then today, the cramps started. As did "other" things.

So what the fuck?!?! What else do I have to do?! Do I have to put on a Catholic high school uniform and get wasted? Do I have to start doing drugs? Do I have to sell the house, the vehicle, quit the perfect post-baby job?? Do I have to say to the Universe "I DON'T EVEN WANT KIDS!"

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?

Because I'll do it! I swear! I'll do anything!!

I don't think there are many things I haven't done!!

So if anyone - ANYONE - has any more suggestions, please let me know. I'll try it. I will fall on my knees and pray to Allah if I have to. I will ask the gods to send my mini-me's to fertilize my uterus. I will dance naked in a lightning storm if I have to!!!

God Almighty, PLEASE. PLEASE!!! Give me a break!!! I am begging you. In the world of Blogs and Internet, I am openly BEGGING God. I am BEGGING the universe. Whatever works. I am BEGGING.

Whoops!!

I spoke too soon. No longer moving or selling our house. Last night, I prayed long and hard that things would get figured out. And today - the whole world just fell into place. BUSY day as all hell, but it was wonderful. I will say more soon. Thank the good Lord!!!

New Venture

Well, it's been a long time since I've written anything about my life. Why?? Because it's so damn boring!

I have thoroughly enjoyed the last couple of months. My boss cut back my hours so I started working from home... something I hated the idea of at the beginning but oh. my. goodness. do I ever LOVE it. Unfortunately, starting Monday he wants me back full time... at an office in Airdrie... so that brings me to what's going on in our world.

I took a second job at the Newsy Neighbor in Strathmore. I am in charge of getting advertising, solely via commission. It is the first job I've ever done that I love. I mean, LOVE. And I'm GOOD at it! I wake up and am excited to find new companies to contact - because I truly believe their business will benefit from our newspaper!

Unfortunately, I don't get paid enough to do it full-time and ONLY. If I don't sell enough, we can't meet our mortgage payments. I'm stuck at a "moo point" (haha): if I stay at my current job working full-time at the office, I don't have enough time to really put a lot of thought and energy into the Newsy Neighbor. However, if I quit my job, I don't have enough money for my mortgage but I would have so much time to get ads (remember: it's something I LOVE doing!)

So...... the best option.... is to put our house up for sale. My beautiful, perfect, first home. My huge backyard. My pride and joy. My beautiful green walls. My huge master bathroom with marble countertop. My newly-finished basement. My first home with my husband.

We're looking to buying in Chestermere so that it's a 10-minute commute for Ryan. Hello, can you say "saving 500$/month on gas?!" And TIME. And energy! We can wake up at 7am everyday instead of 6! Ryan has 10 minute commute instead of 35-40! And I can devote ALL my time to the Newsy Neighbor. I can stay home with Bauer, I can do this job if we ever flippan get pregnant (seriously... WTF?! How am I STILL not pregnant?!) I can do this job from home and never have to go onto maternity leave.

So tomorrow, we're meeting with someone to put our home up for sale. *SNIFF* It is going to be a sad day to sell that house. Very sad, indeed.

Anyways, on a happier note last week I drove the 9 hours north to Fairview for my 10-year high school reunion. Some people haven't changed at all, but some have changed so much. I had SUCH a great time, chatting with everyone and catching up. Funny how after 10 years because of Facebook you pretty much know everyone's bizznezz. But we had such a great time, and I honestly can't wait until my 25th reunion! I think I had a total of 9 hours of sleep that entire weekend and I ate very little since because it's northern Alberta, no one doesn't eat meat. I had a lot of pasta and some fake meat chili dog. Not good, BTW haha.

But I had an awesome time, and it really makes me grateful for where I am in life.

Hmm... what else... I'm a bridesmaid on my due date and I'm gonna look like a fat cow in my bridesmaid dress! Can't wait for that! Hahaha! (I'm laughing, but seriously, I cry every time I look at the photo. I am not going to be a jerk of a bridesmaid and make a big deal about it but seriously... this dress looks good on supermodels, not people with curves).

That's my life. Read at your will. TTFN!

When I Get Where I'm Going

Sometimes, songs just "get" you.
When I get where I'm going... I can't wait to meet Matthew.


When I Get Where I'm Going-Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton