Wednesday, November 25, 2009


So I went to a specialist on Tuesday to figure out what's going on. Because we got pregnant, in the "infertility" world, that means I'm pretty much pushed aside. Regardless of the fact that I lost the baby, they don't look at it like that. Thankfully, my doc was really gentle and kind and is putting me through lots of tests, like:

Day 3 blood work FHS
Day 21 blood work Progesterone
HSG test

My friend Jill told me that the HSG test is one of the most painful tests you will EVER do. You have to take pain meds BEFORE you go in just so that you don't pass out from the pain. They shoot you with this dye and stick a catheter up your yoo hoo to look at everything in your uterus and see what's going on in there. I'm on this baby-mama forum and the ladies were telling me that apparently a LOT of women get pregnant post-HSG test because it really cleans out your uterus/falopian tubes, etc. So.... here's to hoping. That is, of course, if I'm not already pregnant. But since we were NOT trying this month, I can't see that happening.

Furthermore, found out I have pneumonia! I started my antibiotics today (whoops... only a little late...). Apparently I'm borderline pneumonia/bronchitis. But they didn't want to do an x-ray because we've been trying for so long so they are just treating it like pneumonia. Unfortunately, SO much to do with the paper that I can't even relax and get better. After Friday, I'll relax haha.

So, that's about all that's going on in our world.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

So I thought I'd let my readers (all 1 of you! haha) that Ryan and I have officially decided to stop trying to get pregnant. Even reading through my posts, I can see just how depressing they are. I am so obviously depressed that it really can't help our chances of getting pregnant. So... with the fact that if I got pregnant in the next little bit, I would have to miss my brother's wedding, I just realized it would lift so much weight off my shoulders if we stopped. It's tough to say it, but I feel like it'll help my heart and mind.

Furthermore... I am going to start blogging about happy things!! Yay!! hahaha

So happy things.... I'm watching Friends and drinking a bottle of wine to myself as I write this. Saturday night, drinking alone. Is that happy? Or sad...???? hahahaha