Friday, February 19, 2010

Love #1

Well, I considered not mentioning this for a few more weeks, but I don't think anyone actually reads my blog anyways... partly because I rarely update it, and partly because the last year or so my posts have been ridiculously depressing. I've re-read them, and I am so grateful I am not in that horrible place anymore.

We haven't announced this to any friends (so PLEASE don't go posting on my Facebook wall, or publicly emailing me or anything!), but our entire families know mostly because none of my or Ryan's parents can keep a secret! But, it is official: We are pregnant. We are due September 24, 2010. Today, I am 9 weeks on the dot... and things are going MUCH better than last time. During my last pregnancy, today would be the day I found myself in the hospital, and I am so, so grateful that things are a million times better this time around.

That being said...

I used to get soo angry with people who complained about morning sickness. Seriously. I would have given anything in the world for morning sickness. I wanted a baby - I wanted my baby so much I would have taken morning sickness over the pain and misery in my heart. But I obviously had NO idea what morning sickness was!! OH. MY. GOONESS. It is the most horrible feeling in the world!! Seriously! I am nauseous from 6:23am when I wake up, and I get gradually worse throughout the day until I'm vomiting all evening until we make it to bed! I have gingerale on standby throughout the day, I am stuffing my face with absolutely anything I can find (food makes the nausea dissipate for a fraction of a second. So, to keep it going, I don't stop eating!), and I can't even drive anywhere without scanning the roads to be aware of all places I can pull over when the feeling hits.

In short... this isn't fun.

Please don't get me wrong - I am NOT complaining in the least! I LOVE that I am sick. I LOVE that my breasts feel like there are tiny men climbing up them with spiked shoes and picks. I LOVE that this pregnancy is the total OPPOSITE of the last one. I love that I have HOPE during this pregnancy, when the last time all I felt was defeat, stress, and constant worry.

But man alive!!!

I cannot WAIT for September 24th, or whenever this little one decides to show his/her face. I am taking notes from The Secret, that things ARE going to work out well this time around, and that I WILL have a baby at the end of this. Our lives ARE going to start in 2010. No more being on hold. No more saddness. No more sleep. :) I cannot wait. Our lives are going to change forever, and I am so grateful I have the most amazing man ever to stand by me while we jump head first into the unknown.

I'll keep ya updated on the progress, if you care to read!


  1. Oh my goodness -- congratulations! You must be over the moon with excitement and I will be praying for you that all goes well! We must get together again soon so that I can give you a big hug!

  2. Aww thanks Aileen!! That means so much! Yes - we are OVER the moon!! Excitement will set in once we're past this first trimester haha! Yes - let's get together soon! I want to hear how Monkey Mountain is doing! :)

  3. Yeahhhhh!! So happy for you two! Congratulations, congratulations, congratulations....

  4. Thanks Jenelle!!
    Yup, we're pretty pumped too <3<3!!!!


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